A Farewell For Now

She is finally leaving with Long Ge tonight. Long Ge is my nickname for her husband as his surname is Long.

We had a meetup over the weekend, that was my first time seeing Long Ge after 2 long years. He was in a really good mood. I guess the separation from her has been hard on him this past year, and he is glad that she can finally leave with him instead of her sending him off to the airport during his visit back home. I am really glad for the both of them. I empathised her brave fronts when she was alone over here whilst he was working way over there on a different time zone.

Anyways, we talked about it and she didn't want anyone to send her off at 3am on Wednesday. I think the real reason is more of her tendency to cry easily. Heck, she teared quite badly when I had to run off to Australia to sort my thoughts and didn't know when I would come back. We had breakfast that day, she prayed with me and just before I entered the check point, she started bawling.

I am guessing this time round, with a separation so definitive and so far away, we will spend most of our time crying instead of planning how we can meet in Adelaide come Chinese New Year 2007 or when I stopover in Kazakhstan on my way to East Europe again, or the two of us travelling together to France and UK if she is not preggers by 2007.

I hate changes like these. They leave one feeling close to bereft, akin to losing something really close to you. But after awhile, all these feelings calm down with the passing of time, to the point where it won't matter anymore. Oft times, the relationship you once had, would have changed by the time you meet again years later. Nothing one can do about it, time and life changes everything. Nothing stays the same forever. That much is true.

So this is just me, trying not to get weepy, knowing I will laugh at myself years later, or when I am recounting this night to her when we next meet.

Farewell Jan! Take care of yourself! I am really glad for you and your life. Take care of Long Ge and don't bully him so much eh? He really does love you with all that he has and can. I am but a phonecall away and my thoughts will be with you old friend!