He Has Left

I received an email this morning, it was from him.

It was a generic mail, stating that so and so has invited me to google talk. This function is for gmailers to be able to talk to each other like a web phone, pc to pc. We had planned on using this all along, as our means of communication, when he left for that job.

I guess even after all my efforts to not face the confirmation that he has left, I am still being forced back into reality with one big swoosh. He has left. I get it.

I don't think he sent that email to me to turn on the feature so we can talk. I think it was sent as a mass mail to all addresses in his gmail, and he kinda forgot that I'm on the address as well, I guess.

I am not done torturing myself. I need to stay in oblivion a little longer. I wanna stay in this ditzy, non-caring phase for as long as it takes for me to shut off that damn valve of pain. Once it is shut and sealed, I can go back to being me.